ashleyoneil3

I strongly believe that part of my healing is tied to helping others process their trauma and grief, and to remind them that there is still light at the end of the tunnel. The light may not look the way we imagined it would, but it shines nonetheless. For those who have been here for a while, you know I share it all....the highs and lows of being a NICU and medical mama, the grief of burying a child and a husband, the struggle of finding myself again, and the journey of turning my ashes into...

NICU nurse holding Kolin (2019) I am grateful for every classmate, professor (Drexel University and George Washington University), colleague who stood in the trenches with me, and mentors who helped guide my nursing career. 💜 I’m grateful for the L&D nurse who cared for me after Vinson died.... she held my hand, gently cleaned my baby up, took photos, and made hand and footprints that I will treasure forever.....and placed him in my arms. I am grateful for every NICU nurse who cared...

May is my month to… To grieve. To honor. And to reflect. Grieve… I grieve the life I thought I would live. I grieve not being able to grow old with my husband. I grieve being pregnant twice and never getting to take maternity pictures. I grieve never having a baby shower. I grieve never experiencing a golden hour with my babies. I grieve never knowing what it feels like to raise my children in a two-parent home filled with love and shared responsibilities. I grieve being the only one having...